Date:	2009-02-19 20:13
Subject:	Bones, stormtroopers and rennis oh my
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

I am currently watching the most awesome Bones episode ever.
It is a mix of ren faire, cos play, starwars and physical anthropology. It's a freakin wet dream. I get to play "Where's Stormtrooper". In most of the sci fi con scenes, there is this random stormtrooper in almost every frame to try and spot. Totally freakin awesome. I wish I had enough time and money or felt well enough to troop. I hate my body. I will be trying a new specialist in april though. Maybe they can fix me.

Date:	2009-02-09 21:01
Subject:	last chance for cat
Security:	Public
Mood:	distressed

Cats last chance


I have been major problems with my cat. I have had her for 5 yrs and has been the normal temperamental cat. She has been acting up badly. She is urinating and defecating all over the apartment and she is not grooming properly. She whines constantly. I have taken her to the vet and they found nothing wrong with her. They did a course of antibiotics to be safe. When she gets pissed off at me, she will puke on my clothes or on my food. I have put up with this for far too long. She is absolutly ruining the apartment. It smells horrible and if the landlord finds out I am in deep shit. I really don't want to get rid of the cat but I think I am at the end. I have tried everything they have said. I kept her litter really clean, partially clean, dirty. I have tried different litters, moving the box where she is eliminating, moving food where she is eliminating. Nothing is working.

I need help. If not she will have to go to a shelter soon.

This year in review so far.

1. My relativly young computer died unexpectedly and I had to buy a new one
2. Sprint once again screwed me with a bill 100 dollars more than usual
3. Duke screwed me with a bill 100 dollars more than usual
4. I just found out that the university considers my job essential and therefore despite the university being closed and a level 3 snow emergency, I had do work all day.
5. Tried to go home yesterday and car made horrible noises and smells. No taxi service, no bus. I was stranded at work. Mechanics closed.
6. some experiment issues
7. I have to start paying my loans and despite a decent salary, with these payments I might as well be at poverty level.


and thats just me

My dad had pipes burst

Steak n hell is going under and so the took my moms' retirement money first, then the vacation and now they took their medical insurance saying that they didn't work enough hours, which they did based on the contracts. My mom is very ill and has serious heart issues. She has to have insurance. Also, this means my sister has no insurance. Technically my mom and dad are married and he could put her on his insurance, but not until the end of the year.

A cousin has lung cancer and was given a year.


But hey only 11 months to go

there will be a joint birthday party for both julie and i. we will be one quarter century each. we would like to clarify, just to prevent us from being pathetic, that we are throwing the party for each other and not for ourselves. it will start around 7:30 pm at dave and busters near tricounty on friday the 9th. please rsvp by monday.

people i know are invited to attended. please no stray internet stalkers, unless you are cute, single and rich. please note the and.

please also note that we have banned the use of capital letters for this statement. i am against capital punishment.


for those who are not aware, dave and busters is an adults version of cap'n bogies or rolandia. adult in this instance denotes the presence of alcohol and not porn, as well as food more complex than cheese pizza. prizes range from novelty candy , worthless yet cute doo dads to appliances.

Date:	2008-12-07 23:42
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	distressed

so its midnight and I still do not know how nitrogen is incorporated into the uric acid cycle.

I am not entirely sure of the specifics for the requirement of tertrahydrofolate to prevent megaloblastic anemia.
I have no clue how to convert glutamine and CO2 into glycine.

Or how to syntesise nucleotides from succinate and a free nitrogen source.

I r fkd.

I am sooo going to fail this test is in 8 hours. I need to sleep 8 hours.

GOD I hope everyone else bombs this final so I can get a B in this class and pass.



I hate biochemistry. It is tooo freaking hard. HOw the hell am I to learn this in such a short period of time. this is freaking insaine. I will never need most of this stuff.

ARGHGKLDKGJDKJ

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Date:	2008-08-13 23:58
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	distressed

I'm sad and lonely. I don't know people down here. Granted I didn't hang out with anyone in YS but the people in the lab were friends and felt more like family. The new lab is ok and the people are nice but it feels more like a job, which is hard when you put in 10+ hour days.
Cincinnati sucks. Its too crowded, too many freakin drugged out idiots. The only time I don't feel depressed is when I am shopping, and I cannot afford to keep that up. I feel empty. Generally I do well by myself, but this time not. I feel sick and can't sleep worse than usual.

Date:	2008-06-23 20:43
Subject:	Carlin RIP
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

I am sad. George Carlin died. This f3482ng sucks a$$.

Date:	2008-06-10 18:56
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	frak

Ok


My graduation is this saturday at 10 am at the nutter center.



My defense is this Monday at 10:30 AM.


My graduation party is Sunday, 22nd from 1-4.



All are welcome to attend any of these events. Just give me a heads up.

If you need more info as in the address for the party, please email at

wickercaw at my gmail account.



If I have misspelled . suck me my brain is gone.
My tummy hurts.

um ok yeah so an update
been super busy

got job at UC, supposed to start in July as a research assistant.
Cannot move for a while for several reasons, so will have to freakin commute till possibly the end of the year or later. I will also be paid only once a month, which after a while will be fine. It will really screw up the first few months pay though and I will be really tight with money until then. I hope I can manage. The bad thing is I will have to pay for gas for an entire months commute at 400+ dollars before I will be paid and I think the first paycheck will only be 1/2 months pay. EEP. Hope I get money for graduation, that would help. But after September I should be fine and can start paying down my ginourmous debt. Credit cards, need all 4 brake pads replaced (a must for Cinci driving), save for moving company to get stuff from two places up here and move somewhere to Cinci or northern KY, save money for deposit on new place, save money to possibly buy out of lease up here, oh yeah then there are student loans.

My paper for publication is finally going to be sent to our collaborator in TX, after over a month of painful revisions. Course it will likely be hacked to bits and I will have to fix it again. Just pray to whatever God will listen that he will not ask for more experiments or I am royally screwed.

My advisor is finally willing to look at my nearly 100 page thesis. YEAHHH. Should find out Monday or Tuesday as to how bad he thinks it is and start massive revisions,which are a definite.
Oh yeah, did I mention the last day of the quarter is the 14th of JUNE. I have no defense date scheduled as of yet, which should be fun to do as I have to get three professors to be free at the same time. My thesis must be complete and to all of my advisors two weeks before D day. Then I must revise it again. Send it for format check as there is a list of arcahic and retarded formating requirements that if are off in the slightest, the paper will be rejected. Then must submit to the graduate school and pray they do not reject it because if they do, I don't graduate. Apparently I have 30 days from the last day to get everything finalized but since I will start working, I will have to have it done before then. Oh yes, and I must organize all my data and clean out all of my stuff and be sure people in the lab can find it if NIH ever audits us.


My hair is falling out, my stomach is a mess and my blood sugar seems to be peeking at boarderline diabetes (that I am hoping is partly do to stress and will subside).

Can I die now. I have no time to do anything and not enought time to get everything done.


The one bright note, my mom got me a Wii as a graduation gift and I found a 40 dollar TV at a yard sale. At least now I can get some exercise everyday. I like the boxing. I also got DDR, which I really could not afford but the Wii sports package mostly works the upperbody. I think I will get the Wii fit board when it comes out to.

My Personality

Neuroticism	82
Extraversion	17
Openness to Experience	52
Agreeableness	16
Conscientiousness	51

I have returned from the experimental biology 08 in San Diego.

Lots of fun more comments and pics later.
Stupid and took overnight flight home and have not slept in over a day. Must sleep now.

Before, I forget because I always remember when its way too late to call. Can't go to Vogue, though I would love to. Need to be in the lab plus I'd spent an entire months rent 3 seconds into the door.



Good news, went to job interview at OSU and it went really well. They said they would hold the position for me for a few months. Need to get done real quick with my stuff. I will still look around though at other places for jobs.

Date:	2008-02-23 22:27
Subject:	Am I dead yet.
Security:	Public
Mood:	Overwhelmed

I am soo tired. I am doin 12-15 hr days most days of the week and I am still way behind. My advisor says I need to get permission to write early March and I still do not have stuff done. Some of my western blots (looking for protein) are giving me fits again at the worst time. I have to work on my paper for publication and my advisor wants me to work on ideas for a grant. Deadline for June graduation is mid March and I can't register until my stuff is done. Were having major issues with one of the expeiments that may keep any of my work from being publish. We think we can work it out. I poured my heart and soul and sacrificed so much and I may not get my paper. ARgh.

one of the jobs at wright state fell through. There is another one I have not heard back about yet.


I do have an interview with a professor at OSU this Tuesday. I is most excited and nervous. Need to get info into Childrens as well.


There is hardly anyone around here. I may need to move far away to a bigger research area.


I don't get to see any of my friends anymore. Or costume or do anything. I never even call. This sucks. I don't even get to go out in Town. I can't enjoy the Village. I've been to Chens a few times and went to Sunrise Cafe for most awesome though expensive food. Had lamb it was most excellent.



On better news my tickets are booked for san diego for experimental biology 2008 in April. I am so excited. And I definelty want to make time to do some sight seeing. I want to go to Sea World and maybe the zoo. I dont know where to find the time. I so wish I could stay longer. I will finally get to see the ocean and maybe even a dolphin and whale at Sea world. I have wanted to for so long.


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think someone hacked my account. I noticed I have a quiz that I don't remember posting and my internet at home has been out for few weeks and the post was made during that time.

Date:	2008-01-15 23:01
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

According to eharmony there is no one out there for me.


yeah.

What Christina Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

Date:	2007-12-30 23:10
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	screwed royaly side ways

Well, I'm kinda moved in. I have no furniture because the people that were gonna moved me backed out.
I have to still figure out what all to take because the apartment shrunk after I signed the lease and put an air mattress in. Also the stairwell is quite narrow due to the age of the building. Oh well.
Will have to think about parties as it is quite small. I guess we usually stay in one room anyway.
I have to admit is not in the best of shape and some would consider it a slum probably. Fabric can fix anything. But I like it and for the area the price was good considering most of my utilites are included. And at least I don't have to worry about being mugged/raped/murdered on the walk to my car. Eww and the best chinese restraunt in the whole of Ohio is 2 minutes from my door.


I have also just entirely thrown 140 dollars down the drain plus what it will cost me to cancel the scores. I have GRE at 8 tommarrow and am so screwed as I have had no time to study. GRE is a conspiracy and they are making it even harder to make kids take it over again at 140 dollars a pop. I am convinced. Oh well at least it will be practice. A very expensive practice. I was not expecting to have to be moving right now or have my committee meeting the second week of January. I was hoping it would be late January. I took the practice test that comes with the GRE without really studing and my verbal was 570 and quant was 610, which according to the GRE statistics is above average but I don't think in reality it is to be competitive. Very disappointed in the verbal but I have been primarily speaking and writing Scientist instead of English so that is likely why. I think I have read 2 true literary books in the past year, which makes me sound completely illiterate. And I can barely speak and spell simple words anymore but can spell multisyllabic scientific words with no pause. I would have done much better on this test if I'd taken it with my SATs. Also, not practiced the writing portion at all. I'm so screwed. What was I thinking. I am a complete idiot for scheduling this at this time of year. Oh also I suck at taking tests and always to poorly on them.


Also I am not spell checking this so there and no punctuation for this sentance im saving it for tommarow eww ya know what this is gonna be a run on sentance but ya cant tell because there is no punctuation take that gre

Date:	2007-12-19 20:00
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	determined

Just put a deposit down on a place. If all goes well I should be able to move in next month. It is a one room efficiency a bit small but nice and.....ITS IN YELLOW SPRINGS. I will hopefully be next year just a block from down town. Yeah. I more thing to check of the list of things to do before I die.

Now I just need to know how my grandma will take it. She will likely be super pissed and not help pay for the scientific conference in San Diego or kill my dog.

I feel so guilty when looking at my dog. This will be hard.

Sucky thing is that I will have to live without my weenie or pussys..cat. For at least a year. Maybe I can upgrade with the same agency when I get a job and breaking the lease will not be the end of the world.

Hopefully I will hear if I get if by Friday or Monday at the latest.


I shall update floorplan later.


http://www.dunphyrealestate.com/rentallistings

it is the listing on dayton

Date:	2007-12-02 13:48
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

Well my sister and her boyfriend have turned my grandmother completly against me and now I must find a new place to live soon. Aparently I am responsible for all that went wrong last week. My grandmother refuses to talk to me. I have to pull out more student loans including the dredded unsubsidized stafford loan. It should take a few weeks to get. Came home friday from school and my grandma was already packing up my room. Yet she is still telling everyone that she does not want me to move out. My dad said I could move in with him but I cannot bring my dog or cat. So now I have to find an apartment that allows both a dog and a cat. Oh yeah, and this is on top of my back seriously going out on me. I have had to had a cortisone shot as well as combination of Mobic, muscle relaxers and vicodin. My back is in no shape to pack.. Not to mention the several hundred dollars worth of medical bills, which means I have 200 dollars to my name if you dont include the 3500 on my credit card. I have to stay close to the school as well. At least until I graduate which may be in June. But I have to redo ALL of my experiments because the compound I was testing with turned out to be dead and we are just now finding this out. Oh yes and Procter and Gamble have decided I am not worthy for the only biological science researcher job they have that would start in June. I was supposed to go to a conference in April in CA for school, which my Grandma was going to help pay for but I guess that is out of the question as well and I have already submitted the abstract and cannot withdraw it. I truely wish I was dead right now.